Almost done.

Today has been a long day. Class went for about 9 hours, caught a ride with my friends which took about an hour and thirty minutes. Got tutoring for another 2 hours. Tired as hell...  Those last 2 hours almost broke me down. I know nothing is easy in this world. If it was, then I wouldn't have created this blog to talk about what's on my mind. The thought of jumping off a bridge still lingers in my mind... It's just that some days, it gets really stressful. No matter how much effort I put in, I still end up messing up somehow.  I want to have an education. I want to have knowledge.  Getting that stuff into my mind isn't an easy task for me. I'm not like everyone else. I can't just listen and remember it the next day. Deep down, I cry sometimes. I don't get why I can't understand like everyone else. I just hope that it will be for the best. Maybe it will be fine in the future... That bridge still looks enticing.

The Countdown Has Started

This is my first time being alone... For a week.  Hopefully things will go fine and nothing bad will happen.  Everything is set up for me and I just need to follow everything.  Nervous? Yeah, I can say so... Missing them already?  Starting... Thank goodness we are able to have cell phones and video calling and whatnot.  Without that, it is gonna be a really long ten days... I can manage. I'm old enough.  I'm smart enough.  I have enough sense in me to make it through.

ETA:  10 days left.

Creeping up.

So this is only the 2nd week of the last year of high school. The pressure is already coming up. I don't feel happy, nor excited. I'm actually worried. This year isn't going to be easy. I'm taking the hardest ap class there is and I'm having trouble working on even the practice problems. The other ap class is also just as hard to me. I didn't even get the first lesson completely. I feel like I'm falling behind.  I need to catch up as quickly as possible or else, I'm just gonna be fucked. It's really time to limit my access to the interwebs. It's starting to get out of control. The SAT is coming really soon and I need to focus. This is the last chance. Time flys by fast. It doesn't sit still. I need to start moving and get a grip.