Always There.

Talking to one of my best friends really helps me get through this time. I only need to ride it out for another few months or so. After the new year starts, everything should go back to normal. Thanks baht poah, you helped me through this difficult time.

High Expectations

Around this time of year, especially this year,  its starts getting busy.  If you are smart, then it won't be a problem. I'm not the smart one. There are many things to do and so little time.  It's like playing catch-up because there are the things that could have been done earlier, but they were ignored.  Numbers have many meanings. It can be a good thing or a bad thing.  The numbers I saw today made me a little happy because I got the numbers I was hoping to get.  When I showed them to my parents, they said it wasn't a good enough number.  I like my number very much as it was a goal that I wanted to achieve. However, I guess my goal number were pretty low standards.  I don't know what to say about them. I got what I got. There is still a chance left, but how much can I improve in such a short time? The world doesn't stop spinning for anyone, and I'm no exception.  There's just so many things going on right now... I'm getting slapped across the face with disappointment and stress.

The Brain With The Mask.

We think that we know the information that we studied. We devote time every day to retain the information that we learned. All of the knowledge that was studied is put to the test every few weeks or a few days.  Many people are able to retain the knowledge without any problems.  For me, it is different. I am not like the group of people that are able to retain knowledge so willingly. It's a piece of cake for them. I try and do what they do. I do spend time trying to retain the information and I feel like I know about the topics. When it is time to use that information, it has become a complete flop. Everything goes down the drain or disappears.  It's like my brain has a mask. All the informarion is written over that mask but when I want to use it, that mask is taken off and I'm back to the start.  Some things have to change soon or else I will go through some major problems.