Fantasy

Everyone has their own little dream world. All the things that they ever wanted are available at their heart's desire. Some people may have the same fantasy and most people don't. A lot of people dream about it, hoping it comes true. Me? I'm not so sure. I feel like I'm stuck in between. It's like I'm halfway in reality and halfway in my fantasy. Hopefully soon I can make a decision and stay on one side. The good side.

Accidents Happen

Some experts say that raising a child is expensive. About $300,000 expensive...per child. That is a very big investment. As the days pass on within these few months, I am starting to see and agree with those experts.  About $500 has been spent within these few months, and that doesn't account for the previous or future months.  Those dollars spent doesn't even guarantee I will be accepted to where I applied.  It's like stealing! "Sorry, thanks for applying and giving us money, but we reject you. Goodbye! And thanks for the money!" Hundreds, if not, even thousands, or even ten thousands have been spent for me and  my useless needs.  I feel very bad... almost to the point where I am a burden to the world. I just suck up air and spit out carbon dioxide. A few months ago, I remember hearing that I was an accident. And it was said casually.  It didn't sink in at the time, but now, that word is coming back to my head.  Getting into a good school and earning those degrees is very important. I want to see the day where I can earn my first paycheck and give it back to them. I want to prove to them that I was a good investment.  All that time dedicated, all those trips, all the classes.  My gears have to start moving together as quickly as possible. There is only one more chance that I can improve. My life could depend on those scores. It's time to power down those electronics and prepare for those two very important days.